bits and specks

if all i am
is highly organized bits and specks
minuscule globs of matter
mixed with water
passing chemicals all over the place
dividing till i'm new again
nerve cells with electricity
zipping back and forth
caused by stimulus
real or imagined

and if all i am
has taken the kind of time
to be what it is
that i cannot even grasp
in my highly organized brain
what has caused this feeling
something like poison
to be pumped around my body

giving shout to end it all
to self destruct this machine
give it up
bits and specks separate again